To My Brother With Love

I still can't believe you're gone. It was only a moment ago you kissed me on my cheek and said, "I'll see you later." I just didn't realize later meant Heaven. The pain I feel from your absence is indescribable. As I struggle through the tears, anger, and pain, I try to focus on the good in this situation. You're finally at peace and that's a good thing. But as much as I hate to admit it, I am not at peace right now and I don't foresee being at peace anytime soon.

I didn't realize how much you were apart of me until you died. I realized a big part of who I am is because of who you were. I'm going to miss the jokes, stories, and energy you would bring. No one will light up the room like you did. You loved indiscriminately and that was
evident at your funeral. The room was full of people you touched somewhere along the way. As I hurt for you, I'm sure they hurt as well.

I could go on and on about how amazing I thought you were but words would not be enough to describe my affection. I want you to know that you were loved and that you mattered to me. You always mattered, even when you felt like you didn't.  I am proud to call you my big brother. I will do my best to honor your legacy and to love your children as my own. Until we meet again, give Mom a kiss for me and have fun. Hey, you finally get to fly!!! Love you Robert and I'll see you later.....